Thoughts from the abyss

Before you have kids, you see all those TV shows like A Baby story and shows like Full House, and other fictional sitcoms, and you believe that this is what having kids is all about. They show you the perfect pregnancy, with the perfect little child who grows up to be the perfect young adult. You think, wow, I can’t wait until my life is like that. So, today I have been hanging out at the house with a two year old who has decided that being resonable is something that can be accomplished another day.  As I look at my disaster area of a house, I realize that while I LOVE my daughter and wouldn’t trade her in for the world, I realize why I DID NOT want children. I have been feeling the urge to be selfish lately but I attribute that to the change in weather.  Or maybe it is the fact that my child thinks that every thing is supposed to be her way. And God forbid something isn’t exactly her way. The insanity that I survive everyday is cause for concern. Then I talk to other parents of 2 almost 3 year olds and they all tell me the same thing…………………………………………………………………… They are ALL like this in some respect.  Well I say Fuck that, why the hell would I want to do this again.  And now as she gets older the less I want to. Shoot, my little family of three may be complete.  Now I guess I am going to go get me a glass of wine to make it through the rest of the night.